PATIENCE.
Meditations For A Month.
By Richard F. Clarke, S.J.
CATHOLIC TRUTH SOCIETY No. D 18 (1932).
1. The Divine Patience.
A.
When we speak of the patience of God we use the word in rather a different
meaning to that in which it is applied to men. It means that God abstains from
inflicting on the sinner the punishment that he deserves, that He is
long-suffering, that He waits to see if he will perchance repent and turn to
Him, that He is slow to anger and of great mercy. O my God, how patient You have
been with me when I rebelled against You! How You have borne with all my
ingratitude and sinfulness and stubbornness and disobedience!
B.
Holy Scripture contains many examples of the patience of God. When the human
family had become so wicked that God determined to destroy them by the Flood,
He waited a hundred years before carrying out the sentence. When the cry of the
Cities of the Plain rose up before Him, He waited before He determined to
destroy them. When Saul forfeited his kingdom by his disobedience, God waited
for ten years before He carried out the sentence. Learn from God’s example to
be patient with evil-doers and to love mercy rather than vengeance.
C.
God never acts in a hurry, and He thereby desires to teach us deliberation in
all that we do. We do not leave an interval of time as He does between the
wrong and the infliction of the punishment. We are so impulsive that we commit
many faults that we might easily have avoided if we had learned to wait. What
need was there for the delay that we find attributed to God? He, as perfect
wisdom, needs no time for deliberation. But it is that we may recognize the
necessity of being slow to act, and especially of being slow to act, in anger,
that God represents Himself as always waiting.
2. On Various Trials of our Patience.
A.
Patience is tried by everything that puts an obstacle in the way of our action;
by being kept waiting long; by having to repeat, over and over again, some
lesson to a dull learner; by the perverse and wayward conduct of the young; by
being interrupted while speaking when we have something we want to say; by a
hundred similar incidents which continually occur. All these are a good test of
our possession of this virtue. How do I stand the test in each case?
B.
Our patience is also tried by those who misunderstand and misrepresent us. It
is not easy to speak and think kindly of them. We are inclined either to avoid
them or to show our dislike to them. We want to let them know what we think of
them, and to give them a return blow for the blows we believe them to have
given us. But patience bids us take the offence, real or supposed, quietly and
without complaining; it checks the angry word and quenches the fire of
resentment. Here, too, I have an excellent means of gauging my possession of
this virtue.
C.
Patience is also tried by poverty, sickness, desolation, loneliness, by
uncongenial surroundings, and employments which are not to our taste. We all
have to suffer one or other of these painful circumstances of human existence.
He who has the virtue of patience will bow his head and accept with ready
acquiescence the trials that come to him. He will find plenty of good reasons
why they have happened to him, and so far from regretting them or repining
under them, he will say with the Psalmist of the Book of Lamentations: “The
Lord will not cast off for ever. If He cast off, He will also have mercy
according to the multitude of His mercies.” (Lamentations 3:31-32).
3. The Mystery of Suffering.
A.
Those who look upon the world without taking into account the nature of sin,
the meaning of a state of probation, and the rewards and punishments of the
life to come, are puzzled by the sufferings that seem everywhere to abound. Why
has a merciful God created us to suffer? Why is it that the innocent have to
suffer one day while the guilty seem to prosper? Why is it that the most
virtuous often have the hardest lot and the bitterest trials? Suffering is
indeed a mystery.
B.
Friendship with God generally entails suffering. How many a man hitherto
prosperous falls into every kind of misfortune when he turns to God! It seems
as if a high degree of virtue brought misery, not happiness. ‘Dives’ surrounded
with every luxury and Lazarus covered with ulcers lying half-starved at his
gate; Annas triumphant and Jesus crucified; Herod feasting and John butchered
in his prison cell; the Roman Emperor in all the pride of empire and the
friends of God torn by wild beasts, what an apparent anomaly! On a small scale,
there is the same anomaly in my life and in the little world in which I live. I
am inclined to find fault with God’s arrangements. Oh how foolishly!
C.
Does God repay good with evil by sending suffering to those He loves? They
themselves do not think so, and they are the best judges. They rather like
sufferings. How can this be? Suffering in itself is the reverse of pleasant.
But in its effects how wonderful! In its power to counteract evil how
effectual! As a mark of God’s favour how valuable! In its promise for the
future how replete with blessings! It may be said to contain within itself all
sweetness, not in the present but in the future. This is the view I must take
of suffering.
4. The Solution of the Mystery of Suffering.
A.
At the beginning, there was no suffering. It was not until the angels rebelled
that pain and suffering made their appearance in God’s universe. Suffering is
the necessary expiation of the outrage offered to the majesty of God by His
creatures. It is a fulfilment of the eternal law that he who sins must suffer.
It is the complement and effect of sin. It is the carrying out of the law of
retribution. What else are my sufferings but the just punishment for my sins?
B.
But suffering is a great deal more than this. It is the remedy for the disease
of sin, the kindly knife that hurts but cures. What a change suffering makes in
men. See Nabuchodonosor (Nebuchadnezzar) before he suffered, proud and lifted
up, and afterwards humble and submissive. (Daniel 4:27.) See the prodigal son
led by suffering to return to his father’s house. See even the wicked Achab (Ahab)
humbled by suffering. (1 Kings 21:27 called 3 Kings 21:27 in the Vulgate.) “It
is good, O Lord,” says David, “that You have afflicted me. Before I was
troubled I went wrong, but now I have kept Your word.” Chastisement yields to
those who are exercised by it the peaceable fruit of justice. (Hebrews 12:11.)
It purifies the soul, and almost forces men to humility and submission. Has it
had this effect with me? If it has, I will thank God.
C.
Suffering is the payment for joy to come. The willing acceptance of it is the
surest road to a high place in Heaven. We can earn more grace for ourselves and
for others by the patient endurance of suffering than by the most active zeal;
it is a safer as well as a surer means of glorifying God, for we cannot well be
proud of our sufferings as we may be of our actions. Thus, it is one of the
best gifts that God can give us. I therefore must be willing to pay the price
if I desire to win the reward.
5. The Praises of Patience.
A.
Patience is a virtue which receives in Holy Scripture, and especially in the
writings of Saint Paul, praise almost without end. “He that is patient,” says
the Wise Man, “is governed with much wisdom.” (Proverbs 14:29.) “Patience has a
perfect work,” says Saint James (chapter 1:4). “Patience is necessary to you,”
says Saint Paul, “that doing the will of God you may receive the promise.”
(Hebrews 10:36.) Think over these passages one by one, and question yourself
whether you fulfil this necessary condition of eternal salvation.
B.
Our Blessed Lord has Himself a special benediction for patience. “In your
patience,” He says, “you shall possess your souls.” (Saint Luke 21:19.) That
is, by patience we shall save our souls. What higher praise could our Lord
bestow upon patience than this? If it is to be the instrument of salvation, it
is an inestimable treasure. Instead of dreading it, we ought to court it and
welcome every occasion for its exercise. Every act of patience brings us nearer
to Heaven, and the test of our fitness for the Kingdom of God is, have we
learned to suffer with perfect patience?
C.
Saint John does but echo the words of his Divine Master when he says (Apocalypse
7:14) of the redeemed around the throne, “These are they who came out of great
tribulation.” Not that the mere passing through suffering is sufficient, for he
adds: “And have washed their robes and made them white in the Blood of the
Lamb,” that is, have obtained forgiveness by uniting their sufferings with the
sufferings of the Son of God. Do I find in myself this description realized?
Have I suffered and suffered willingly for Christ’s sake? Or do I seek to avoid
all suffering and fight against it, and bear it impatiently when it comes?
6. First Degree of Patience.
A.
When we are studying to acquire a virtue, it is generally the better plan to
begin with external actions, and thence to proceed to the interior dispositions
whence those actions proceed. In accordance with this rule, we must begin by
repressing all signs of resentment and anger when we are offended, or when
someone crosses our path, or hinders some work in which we are engaged. If
under all this we can keep an unmoved and tranquil countenance, and avoid all
expression of personal feeling and annoyance, this is a great point gained. Am
I able to do this?
B.
Why is it important to begin with exterior patience? First, because this helps
enormously to calm the feelings within us just as we can work ourselves up into
a fury by raging externally. Peace will soon return if we keep a serene face
and quiet demeanour. Secondly, because exterior calmness under ill-usage
edifies others and honours Christ our Lord, just as impatience and irritability
disedify and dishonour the name of Christian. I must remember this when I am
tempted to yield to my injured pride, and to retaliate on those who have
offended me.
C.
Our Lord Himself points out exterior patience as the very first thing in which
we should imitate Him, for He says: “Learn of Me, for I am meek and humble of
heart.” Meekness is but patience in its exterior manifestation. If I am sincere
in my wish to follow in the footsteps of Christ my Lord, here is the best point
with which to begin. I must for His sake and for love of Him be more gentle to
those who give me pain, more tranquil under words and actions that wound or
hurt me.
7. The Second Degree of Patience.
A.
The repression of external signs of impatience has no value in God’s sight
except in so far as it is a step to the interior virtue. The soldier, the courtier,
the servant, suppresses the exterior marks of impatience from fear of
punishment and hope of reward. The Christian must do more than this; he must
have within him the motive of imitating the patience of Jesus Christ. Smoke is
the sign of fire within, but the smoke will not warm the house unless there is
the fire on the hearth; so external patience will not please God unless there
is also the motive of patience within the soul. Am I striving after the
interior virtue? Have I even succeeded in repressing the exterior impatience
for Christ’s sake?
B.
When some unkindness or injury is done us, there arises in us a double feeling.
We feel pained and hurt; in this, there is no sort of sin. But we are also
conscious of another feeling; a desire to retaliate, a wish to see some
retribution befall the offender. We are bitter towards them; we are tempted to
indulge ourselves in an animosity that approaches sometimes even to hatred.
This is what has to be expelled from our souls if we are to resemble Him who
was meek and humble of heart.
C.
What must we do to rid ourselves of this bitterness? Dislike may remain in
spite of all our efforts; this we cannot help. But we must resolve that no
unkind wish towards the offender shall be indulged. Then we must set to work to
pray for calmness and a spirit of forgiveness, then we must think of all we
deserve for our offences against God, and must say from our heart: “Forgive us
our trespasses as we forgive them that trespass against us.” Last of all, we
must pray for the offender.
8. The Third Degree of Patience.
A.
When we have succeeded in suppressing all outward impatience and inward
resentment as far as it is voluntary and deliberate, we shall begin to reap the
reward of our efforts. We shall find that the treatment which we once regarded
as intolerable has certain advantages resulting from it. We may hope at last to
find a positive pleasure in being overlooked or unfairly treated, in being
humbled in the eyes of men, or blamed for what we did with all good intention.
I must try to aim at this. It is not out of my reach.
B.
How am I to gain this willingness to be misunderstood and harshly judged, this
desire for rebuffs and disappointments? I must bring my common sense to bear on
them. I must keep before myself how useful, how necessary for the beating down
of pride. They are a most effectual means of making satisfaction for sin, if I
offer them up to God in the name of Jesus Christ. When I remember all this, I
ought to be quite anxious for what is a bitter but most salutary medicine.
C.
When I read the lives of saints and holy men, I find there the true estimate of
all things. Now, what was their attitude towards those who despised,
persecuted, ill-treated them? They looked upon them as their greatest
benefactors. How did they regard the reproaches, the neglect, the unkindness
they had to undergo? They thanked God for them, rejoiced in them, considered it
a misfortune if they were absent. If we want to resemble the saints, we must
take their view of obloquy and misunderstanding. We must strive not only to put
up with them but actually to welcome them, rejoice in them, consider them as
our greatest privilege.
9. On Impatience.
A.
Impatience is one of the most foolish of all faults. It gains nothing for us;
it does not relieve our sufferings, but aggravates them. No one enjoys any
peace as long as he is yielding to feelings of impatience; he is discontented,
miserable, uneasy. He finds intolerable what he could bear well enough if only
he would make the necessary effort, and gulp down the rising irritation or
suppress the angry words. He is always in a fever, and is a nuisance to
himself and to all around him. Do not I know this by experience? If not, I
must thank God for giving me so happy a disposition.
B.
Impatience is also one of the most ridiculous of all faults. There is something
laughable and contemptible in the fuming of the impatient man over some trifle,
in his rage because he cannot overcome some difficulty or have his own way as
he desires. An impatient man always makes a bad impression. If I could see
myself as others see me when I give way to impatience, I should be thoroughly
ashamed and very careful not to make myself so foolish again.
C.
Impatience, when voluntarily indulged, is a sort of indirect rebellion against
God. It is a practical refusal to bear willingly the trials that He has laid
upon us; it is a kicking against the goad. No wonder that we hurt ourselves in
so doing; it is only what we deserve. We all of us need trials, but if instead
of profiting by them and learning patience from them, they are to us only an
occasion of impatience, they simply increase our condemnation. If I give way to
impatience, it shows that I am not subject, as I ought to be, to the law of
God, and still less to the sweet yoke of Christ.
10. On Physical Impatience.
A.
Physical impatience is that involuntary feeling of irritation which is aroused
in us by some external and physical cause. We are looking for something and
cannot find it. We are trying to fix our thoughts, and some distracting noise
renders it impossible. We are trying to compose ourselves to sleep, and some
troublesome neighbour wakes us up just as slumber was creeping over us. On
account of all such impatience, we should humble ourselves, as being a sign of
faults indulged in the past, not of present sin.
B.
This sort of physical impatience anticipating our reason is very often the
result of impatience, pride, self-will long indulged. The ghost of past sins
reappearing to remind us of what we have forgotten and to keep us humble. Not
always, for Saint Teresa tells us that owing to ill-health and desolation, she
had the greatest difficulty in remaining calm and gentle and in resisting the
impulse to speak sharply and disagreeably. But as a general rule, such physical
impatience may be taken, at all events while we are in good health, as a mark
of pride not completely subdued, and of self-will that has not fully learned to
submit.
C.
How are we to be rid of physical impatience? Chiefly by schooling ourselves to
endure by bearing willingly even what we could avoid, by waiting long ere we
knock again, if our first signal produces no effect, by checking the word of
complaint or gesture indicative of our suffering. Such little efforts at
self-mastery are very pleasing to God; they often cost us a good deal. They may
be concerned with trifles, but the victory over ourselves is no trifle. Learn
then to seek to overcome the first movements of physical impatience.
11. On Complaining.
A.
When anything pains or annoys us, it is a natural impulse to relieve our
feelings by telling our griefs to others, partly from a hope of sympathy,
partly because it is a great relief to express our vexation or our sorrow. Such
complaints are rarely made without sin. It is scarcely possible to speak of
what we have suffered without some breach of the law of charity. We must strive
to exercise the virtue of patience, and check the rising words in which we are
about to pour forth the story of our wrongs.
B.
The effort of keeping silent in such a case soon brings its reward. The pain
after a time diminishes, whereas to have dilated on it would have made us feel
more bitterly than before. Those who know that we have suffered are edified by
our silence. Our wrong-doer is often won over by our meekness. Peace comes into
our heart. Do I suppress for Christ’s sake and to imitate His patience, unkind
words rising to my lips? When I have done so, do I not find that patience
brings its own reward?
C.
Yet this does not mean that I am always to bury my griefs in my own heart.
Sometimes I cannot do so; out they will come in spite of my efforts. Sometimes
it is almost a duty to tell our story to some kind and sympathizing friend;
half of our troubles disappear or are sensibly diminished in the mere act of
telling. But we must choose one whom we can trust and respect. We must be
careful not to speak bitterly or to abuse others by way of vent to our
feelings. We must try to excuse others, and must tell our story simply and with
all charity. Do I observe this rule when I am pouring my troubles into the ear
of some friend or adviser?
12. The Endurance of Temptation.
A.
Temptations are a necessary element in the career of all the servants of God.
“Because you were acceptable to God,” says the Angel to Tobias, “it was
necessary that temptation should try you.” (Tobias 12:13.) Temptations,
therefore, far from being any mark of God’s anger or displeasure, are a sign of
His love and favour. This ought to be our consolation when we are harassed by temptations.
Saint James tells us: “My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into divers
temptations.” (Saint James 1:2.) I must take a more cheerful view of temptation
than I have hitherto done. I must take it as a mark of God’s favour, and then I
shall meet it more bravely.
B.
How is temptation a sign of God’s love? It is an excellent instrument for
engendering humility. If we are inclined to think too much of ourselves,
nothing brings us to our senses like some humiliating temptation. It shows us
our own weakness and the necessity of continual reliance on God. It produces in
us a spirit of dependence upon God. This is the only way to pass through
temptation safely. God has promised that He will always make a way to escape
from every temptation.
C.
Temptation is also necessary to enable us to feel for others under their
temptations. Even our Lord, the Apostle tells us, suffered being tempted, that
He may be able to succour those that are tempted. (Hebrews 2:18.) He knew
indeed from the beginning all that His servants suffer, but by enduring
temptation He learned it by His own experience so as to feel their sufferings.
We do not even know the sufferings of others; much less can we sympathize with
them thoroughly. Am I gentle towards those who are tempted, or am I hard and
unsympathetic?
13. Patience under Temptations.
A.
If we all have to endure temptations, we must try to endure them well.
Temptations are not sins. We may be surrounded with temptations. They may be
present to us for hours. We may have a sort of guilty feeling as if we had
offended God. Yet if we are not conscious of having in any way consented to
them, if throughout we have wished them away, then our conscience is free from
any stain of sin, even though they may have caused satisfaction to our lower
nature and to our baser inclinations. To remember this will help us not a little
in bearing them patiently.
B.
But there is another consoling consideration with respect to temptation. We may
do much for the honour of God and for our own progress in virtue by our
resistance to the tempter. We lay up a store of merit in Heaven. We are
purified as in the fire, and the dross of venial sins and imperfections is
taken away. We must therefore be not only patient, but cheerful under temptations,
and thank God for them.
C.
Some of the greatest saints were subject to terrible temptations. Saint Paul,
who had been rapt to the third Heaven, was tempted by the sting of the flesh; Saint
Alphonsus, by doubts against every article of the Faith, by vanity,
presumption, and concupiscence; Saint Rose, by darkness, and a seeming
hopelessness of being saved; she felt no love of God and feared that she was
already among the lost. Yet these were great saints, and they proved their
sanctity by their faithfulness under temptation, by crying out, “Jesus, forsake
me not! In You, O Lord, I. have trusted, let me not be confounded for ever.” I
will do the same: I will never lose hope; I will never lose my confidence in
God.
14. On Patience in Sickness.
A.
It is not easy for those who have always enjoyed robust health to understand
how heavy a cross is a long-continued sickness. It is not merely the physical
pain, though this is often very hard to bear. It is the discomfort, the
weariness, the languor, the depression, that accompany sickness; it is the
restlessness, the inability to find repose, the loneliness of the long hours.
What need the sick have of patience! Patience should be the watchword of their
life. Grant me patience, O Lord, patience to suffer for You and with You and
never to murmur even when the pain and suffering is greatest.
B.
There is a form of ill-health which is the hardest of all to bear with
patience; when we go about our usual occupations in a state of suffering that
make everything a burden. We get little sympathy because we are still able to
do our work, or perhaps we are blamed because we are not able to do it well.
Oh, what compassion we should have for those who suffer thus, and if it is our
own lot, we should do our best to unite our sufferings with the sufferings of
Jesus and ask Him to grant us patience to carry our heavy cross.
C.
We sometimes fancy that when we are ill and unable to do active work for God,
we are useless and cannot gain graces for ourselves or for others. This is a great
mistake; we can gain more graces in sickness than in health. Suffering is more
pleasing to God than doing; it earns greater merit, it prepares us more
speedily for Heaven, it blots sin more rapidly. Many of the saints were
sanctified by sickness. Hence, bear it willingly, try to rejoice in it.
15. Patience under Bereavement.
A.
Pure human love, especially the love of father and mother for their children,
is one of the most beautiful things in the natural order. It interweaves itself
with our very nature. Husband and wife, brother and sister, and above all the
children who are in a special sense our own, are a part of ourselves; they are
our own by birth, our own-by constant association, our own by a thousand ties
of love. Oh, how hard it is to lose one of our little circle, to see the empty
place, to miss their looks of love, the sweet sound of their voice. Then indeed,
we have need of patience, and must beg that we may not grieve like those who
have no hope, but may humbly bow our necks under God’s chastising hand.
B.
Patience! How are we to obtain it under the crushing blow? How are we to
recognize the love of God in thus taking away the light of our eyes from us? It
is indeed hard, and for a time the absorbing grief may overpower us. But we can
always pray, we can always make an act of resignation, we can always say: “Not
as I will, but as You will.” “It is the Lord; let Him do what is good in His
sight.” Has this been my conduct when one whom I dearly loved was taken from
me?
C.
There are many motives of consolation, when friends and dear ones fade away or
die. If they died in their innocence, how we, ought to rejoice when we think of
them with Christ in Heaven! If they had sinned and done penance, we ought to
rejoice that God gave them the grace of dying a good death. We can always
console ourselves by praying for them. We can make their departure a reason for
living a better and a holier life, that we may not fail of meeting them again
before the throne of God. All this I will do more henceforward.
16. On Patience under Contempt.
A.
There are few things so hard for human nature to bear as contempt. To be
regarded as not worthy of notice, to be spoken of in terms implying that we are
looked down upon, to be passed over as if of no importance in the eyes of
others, all this is indeed painful to us and sorely tries our patience. When I
am thus treated, how do I take it? Am I desirous to prove my importance and the
necessity of considering me? If so, I shall not have the patience that I ought
to have. I still have much of the spirit of pride left in me. I must pray God
to make me more humble.
B.
Why is it that contempt is so
painful to us? It is because our natural craving is after power and influence.
We do not realize our own insignificance. If we did, we should be quite willing
to be overlooked. We should dislike the high esteem of men. This was the case
with the saints. They shunned honour and courted contempt. Saint Philip used to
go into the Cardinals’ places in Saint Peter’s on a feast that he might have
the humiliation of being thrust out. Saint Francis used to kneel down in the
refectory and openly accuse himself of gluttony. Oh my God! Shall I ever obtain
this grace of being satisfied to be despised, and of disliking to be honoured?
C.
What would be the treatment bestowed upon us if those around us saw us as we
are in God’s sight, if they knew all the wicked thoughts and sinful actions of
our past life? What would be their estimate of us if they saw us with all the
abominations of our soul unveiled; if they beheld our pride, and selfishness,
and sloth, and impurity, and self-indulgence, our high esteem of ourselves and
our indifference to God? Oh how they would despise us then! How we ought to
despise ourselves!
17. Some Motives for Patience under Contempt.
A.
It is always foolish to complain or to be dissatisfied with that which of its
own nature is calculated to advance our happiness and our highest interests.
Contempt is better suited than almost anything else to humble us, if we take it
as we ought. It cannot fail to tear up the pride that is so deeply rooted in
our hearts and which is the great obstacle between us and God. Ought we not
then to be grateful to those who do us this service? In stead of resenting this
treatment of us, we ought to thank God and pray for them as our benefactors
B.
When we look into ourselves, must we not acknowledge that contempt is what
ought to be felt towards us? It is the fitting disposition, the proper attitude
towards one so contemptible as I am. My love of what is fitting ought to make
me welcome it as the right and proper thing. I ought not only to acquiesce in
it, but to be pleased at justice being done to me. I ought to say to myself
when treated with contempt: That is just and right! It is exactly the true view
to take of me!
C.
Above all, I ought to value contempt because it gives me a share in the
humiliation of my dear Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ. He humbled Himself even
to death. He was treated with the utmost contempt and ignominy by the very
creatures He had made, who owed all to Him, and on whom He had bestowed
countless benefits and lavished unmeasured love. What can be better or happier
or a greater privilege than thus to be clad in the livery of my Lord, and to be
treading, all unworthy as I am in His footsteps? Welcome then contempt and
ignominy for Jesus’ sake and as giving me a share in His Divine life.
18. The Patience of Job.
The patience of Job is proverbial. It is held up in Holy Scripture for our
imitation. (Saint James 5:11.) It was commended by God Himself and received a
rich reward even in this world. It is therefore worthy of our study and
imitation.
A.
The patience of Job supported him not against one kind of misfortune only, but
against a series of all kinds of calamities coming upon him one after another
in rapid succession. All his goods were taken from him, and his children were
one and all killed by the fall of a house where they were. Job, so far from
murmuring, simply worshipped God, saying: “The Lord gave and the Lord has taken
away: Blessed be the name of the Lord!” (Job 1:21) Is this my language when I
suffer?
B.
Job’s next misfortune befell his own body. He was smitten with grievous ulcers
from head to foot. His wife, seeing his condition, cried out to him that it was
better to put an end to his life than to live on in such a state. But Job
gently reproved her: “If we have received good things at the hand of the Lord,
why should we not receive evil?” (Job 2:10) I too have received good things
without number from God’s hand. Shall I then murmur if I receive a little of
the evil, of which I have deserved so much?
C.
But this was not the end of Job’s troubles. His three friends came to comfort
him, and began to taunt him as a vain man lifted up by pride, who had hardened
his heart and thus brought all this misery upon himself. Poor Job could not
restrain the expression of his misery; he poured forth words of sorrow, yet he
never lost his patience or His confidence in God. Do I thus keep up my trust in
God when all around fail or reproach me undeservedly? Am I gentle and patient
with them as was Job?
19. The Source of Job’s Patience.
A.
How was it that Job was able to bear with patience his manifold calamities? It
was not that he did not feel them acutely, or that he wrapped himself in a
mantle of self-reliant pride. It was simply due to his great subservience to
the will of God. His motto was: “As it has pleased the Lord, so let it be
done.” (Job 1:21) He was quite satisfied with whatever was the Divine good pleasure,
and so whatever happened he could say from his heart: ‘Blessed be the name of
the Lord’ (Job 1:21). He could thank God for it, however great the pain and
misery resulting to himself.
B.
There was a further secret of Job’s patience. He placed his hopes of happiness
in the future, not the present: “I know that my Redeemer lives, I know that in
my flesh I shall see God.” (Job 19:25-26) When man thus realizes the love of
Jesus, and is able to say my Redeemer (as Saint Paul said, He loved me and gave
Himself for me - Galatians 2:20), he has amid all his troubles a source
of consolation that never can dry up. He is able to look to the joyful day of
the resurrection. In my trials, I must thus look to Jesus, and think of the
reward to come which shall richly compensate for all present pain.
C.
Job was not only perfectly resigned but ready for fresh sufferings if it were
God’s will and if no rebellion in his heart should follow from the additional
calamities. “Let this be my comfort that afflicting me, He spare not; and that
I may not contradict the words of the Holy One.” (Job 6:10) Is this my spirit?
Have I the generosity to pray for more sufferings and more humiliations? At
least I will pray that God may send me whatever He sees will cleanse me from
sin, and help me to love Him more.
20. The Reward of Job’s Patience.
“You have heard of the patience of Job, and have seen the end of the Lord, that
the Lord is merciful and compassionate,” (Saint James 5:11.)
A.
The patience of Job produced as its first-fruit humility. Though he had never
lost his patience nor in any way rebelled against God, yet when he heard the
voice of God declaring to him the Divine Majesty, he accuses himself of
speaking unwisely of things that exceeded his knowledge. “I reprehend myself
and do penance in dust and ashes.” (Job 42:6) This is the effect of suffering
on the friend of God; it does not embitter them, it humbles them.
B.
Job earned the approval of God Himself having spoken aright. Against his
friends, the wrath of God was kindled for their unkindness, their rash
judgment, their censorious words. They were commanded to offer sacrifice for
their sins, and to ask Job to pray for them if they desired escape God’s anger.
Thus, God will always justify His faithful servants, if they leave their cause
in His hands. “Blessed are those who wait for Him, they will not be
disappointed.” (See Jeremiah 17:7) Is this my policy, or am I keen to fight my
own battles?
C.
God rewarded Job even in this life for his patience. One by one his relations
came to comfort him and bring him presents. God blessed his flocks, his herds,
his family, and he became doubly as rich as ever. Sons and daughters grew up
around him, and Job was happy and prosperous. He died at last, full of days,
leaving behind him a name to be honoured as an example of patience as long as
the world lasts, and receiving in Heaven a rich reward. Am I earning by my
patience in this life God’s blessing and an eternal reward in Heaven?
21. The Patience of Mary.
A.
As Jesus came to suffer, it was necessary that Mary should suffer with Him.
This was her greatest privilege, and she knew it to be such. She knew it even
when her human love broke forth in the words of expostulation: “Son, why have You
so dealt with us?” She knew it when she stood broken-hearted beneath the Cross.
She knew it when she received in her arms the Body of her Son after He had been
taken down from the Cross. She knew from first to last that the best proof of
our Lord’s love is to give us a share in His sufferings. This was Mary’s
consolation; is it mine when I have to suffer?
B.
We do not read much in Holy Scripture respecting the patience of Mary, but
enough to know that Jesus purposely tried her patience. Why did He prompt holy
Simeon to pierce her heart with the prediction of her coming sufferings? Why
did He compel her to start in the dark night on the journey to Egypt, when He
could so easily have defeated Herod’s projects? Why did He not let her know
where He was when He remained behind in Jerusalem? Why did He apparently rebuke
her at the marriage of Cana? Why did He allow her heart to be torn by the sight
of His Crucifixion? It was all that she might have a more glorious reward and
share His triumph in a greater degree.
C.
If we could have seen Mary upon earth, we
could have been especially struck by her undisturbed peace. This was owing to
her perfect patience and readiness to accept everything at God’s hand. “Behold
the handmaid of the Lord; let it be done to me according to your word.” If
I desire peace, this must be the motto of my life.
22. The Patience of Jesus Christ.
As in all other virtues, so in patience, Jesus Chris is our Teacher and
Example. None ever sufferer as He did, and therefore none had to exercise such
patience as He exercised.
A.
How patient He was with those who reviled and abused Him! Never one indignant
word, never one angry look, nothing but sweetness and kindness. “Father,
forgive them, for they know not what they do.” Oh, when shall I be able to imitate
the patience of Jesus! When shall I approach even at a distance the Divine
Model I profess to imitate!
B.
How patient He was with His Apostles! How their roughness, selfishness,
stupidity, must have jarred upon Him! They misunderstood His word; they
quarrelled among themselves; His predictions respecting the Passion fell upon
deaf ears; they all forsook Him in time of danger; yet He never was ruffled by
the faintest breath of anger or impatience. He who was the Infinite God put up
with their inconstancy, selfishness, ambition. Once more, how far am I from the
gentleness and patience of the Son of God!
C.
In the midst of physical agony such as none other ever tasted, how patient He
was! Nothing save a gentle moaning expressive of the agony He was enduring
escaped His lips when the scourges lacerated His Sacred Body, and when the
nails were driven through His hands and feet. He endured what even He could not
have borne had He not been God, and used His Divinity to enable Him to suffer
more. Yet He was always submissive to the will of God, always taking a sort of
strange joy in His acutest agony, because He knew the rich reward at hand, the
long-lived seed who through Him would be redeemed from the wrath of God and
endless misery.
23. The Patience of the Saints.
A.
To the grace of patience, all the saints in great measure owe their eternal
reward. Their crown in Heaven will not be due so much to what they have done
for God as to what they have suffered for Him. In them “patience has its
perfect work” (Saint James 1:4), and that work has been to prepare them for the
eternal joys of Heaven. Oh, how grateful they will be to God for the patience
that he has given them to suffer willingly for Him! How grateful they will be
for the sufferings that have procured for them such happiness inexpressible and
peace that knows no end.
B.
The saints while still on earth have a truer view of all the events of life
than we have. They value above all things, even while they are still suffering
them, the crosses and afflictions that God sends them. The Apostles counted it
joy to suffer shame for Christ’s sake. “We glory in tribulation,” says Saint Paul.
Saint Francis Xavier prayed for more suffering; Saint Teresa that she might go
on suffering until her death. This was no mere sentiment; it was common sense
and ordinary prudence. They found a real joy even here in suffering. Have I any
such joy? Or do I dislike and try to avoid suffering? Here is a test of whether
I am like the saints.
C.
The patience of the saints was more severely tried than is ours. Not only were
they stoned, racked, torn asunder, not only did they suffer want, distress,
afflictions (Hebrews 11:37), but they had to endure what was still harder,
ingratitude, failure, unkindness, false accusations, desolation, darkness. Yet
they willingly endured all for Jesus' sake - never ceasing to love Him through
it all. I have my trials, yet none so dreadful as those, yet I complain even
under my lighter cross.
24. The Patience of the Martyrs.
A.
To lay down one’s life for Christ is one of the greatest honours that can be
bestowed upon us. It ensures an immediate entrance into Heaven. It gives us a
part, such as nothing else can give, of the sufferings of Him who laid down His
life for us. It is a crowning mark of God’s mercy to those who are His especial
friends. It is not in the power of all who desire it; it is given to those for
whom God has destined it and to none else. It has to be purchased by a long
course of faithful service of God. If only God would give me such a privilege,
how happy I should be. If only I could live so to deserve it!
B.
Even the weak, the timid, the sensitive, can do it. God gives them the special
grace of martyrdom to face undismayed the most cruel tortures. Sometimes they
did not feel the pain even when it was most agonizing. The secret joy of their
hearts the thought that they were suffering for Christ made it seem light to
them, and gave them fortitude to endure it to the end. If God should at a time
give me the happiness of dying for Him, He will take away all the fear and will
give me a light and joyous heart even in the midst of the greatest physical
sufferings! Yes!
C.
If there is little or no prospect of my laying down my life for Christ, yet I
can at least make the offering to Him; I can present myself to suffer anything
that He has in store for me. It may be that I am destined for suffering worse
than death - the prolonged martyrdom of physical or mental anguish. But one
thing I know, that He will never lay upon me suffering beyond what I am able to
bear, and will, with the suffering, give the grace necessary to endure it with
resignation and perhaps even with joy.
25. The Patience of the Angels.
A.
Patience is an angelical virtue as well as purity. The patience of our Guardian
Angels must sometimes be sorely tried. Oh, how often they give advice which is
not listened to, and whisper in the ear of their clients messages from God, but
speak to ears that are willfully deaf! How often they warn us, but we neglect
their warnings! How little notice we take of them and how ungrateful we are to
them for all their care! Even when we pray, and in answer to our prayer our
Guardian Angel signifies to us what God desires us to do, we often turn away
and follow our own perverse inclinations instead. Have I not too often done so?
B.
There is nothing more trying to the patience of those who have active energetic
natures than to be continually thwarted, to fail through the obstinacy and
stupidity and wilfulness of others, to see their plans fail without any fault
of their own. What can be the effect upon the Guardian Angels when one plan
after another that they devise for our good fails, and when we thwart their
endeavours and render all their efforts fruitless; when we throw away grace
after grace and they know that these graces never now will return. Is it not
enough to cause them to relinquish such clients in disgust?
C
Yet their charity and patience never fail. When we neglect one grace, they
obtain another for us. When we do that which offends God, they pray for us all
the more. Untiringly they devise means for bringing us to our senses and never
give over their efforts as long as life endures. They are thus our model in
dealing with perverse sinners; never to lose heart or be cast down by failure,
but to go on to the end patiently working and praying.
26. The Patience of the Holy Souls.
A.
In Purgatory the suffering is more intense than any suffering of this present
life and therefore there is greater need of patience to endure it. But the Holy
Souls have their wills in perfect conformity to the will of God, and they
cannot be anything but patient amid their torments. They do not and they cannot
rebel, but their submission does not remove the bitterness of their unceasing
sorrow, as they think how comparatively easy it would have been for them to
avoid while still on earth their present anguish by greater faithfullness to
grace, and by uniting their actions and sufferings to the actions and sufferings
of the Divine Son of God.
B.
If we could look forward to those sufferings with an appreciation of what they
are, how patient we should be now! We should consider it a privilege to suffer
now as the very best way of avoiding the agony of that fire which will be
kindled by the wrath of God, and will in some way correspond to our ingratitude
and unfaithfulness to our King and Benefactor. If no other motive makes me
patient under my earthly sufferings, yet at least prospect of long years of far
worse sufferings ought to make me choose the lighter suffering now. What am I
doing to shorten my Purgatory?
C.
The Holy Souls must sometimes think reproachfully how little their friends on
earth do to help them. Among many other methods of aiding them, I can offer up
for them all the pains of mind and body that God sends me, asking God to accept
it in alleviation of their sufferings. This will help me to be patient and to
suffer willingly, and when my time comes, I shall find that patient suffering
for others will shorten my time of banishment from God in the fires of
Purgatory.
27. The First Fruit of Patience: Peace.
A.
We all long after peace; we are anxious not for inactivity, nor indeed that we
should have nothing against which to fight, but for the absence of that
conflict within us which is the source of all our misery. It is the struggle in
our own hearts between two opposing forces of duty and inclination that
troubles and disturbs us. If this struggle is to cease, one of these two forces
must be crushed. It is the process of crushing our corrupt inclinations that we
dread. We have not the necessary courage, though we know that the only way to
peace is to mortify our members which are upon the earth. This is the story of
my troubles. I have not conquered my lower nature and my self-will.
B.
How is the victory to be gained and peace restored to our hearts? It is
impossible without suffering. Nothing else has the power to break our proud
wills and make us put our stubborn necks beneath the yoke. We speak of those
who have suffered having a chastened look, and it always attracts us. There is
in suffering a sort of magic which ought to commend it to us, or at least to
reconcile us to it. If I have to suffer, I will think of this, and console
myself with knowing that God will bring peace and happiness out of it.
C.
But it is not all suffering that has this wholesome effect, but only suffering
borne with patience. If we are impatient, rebellious, un-resigned, our
suffering may be an occasion of fresh trouble rather than of peace. I must
accept it from the hand of God, if it is to bring with it that quiet
tranquillity which I have never yet attained as I fight. I must bow my head and
place myself in God’s hands to suffer as He pleases, whatever He Pleases, as
long as He pleases. This is the only road to solid peace.
28. The Second Fruit of Patience: Hope.
A.
“Patience,” says Saint Paul, “works out our trial, and trial hope.” (Romans
5:4.) If we humbly accept the sufferings God sends us without rebellion or
complaint, then we reap the reward in rapid growth of hope within our heart.
Through the darkness, we descry a bright light in the distance, and though our
path be a dreary and a painful one, this prospect cheers us up and makes us go
on our way rejoicing. In the earlier part of the time of trial, hope was dim
and faint, but when we have been proved faithful servants, hope begins to
anticipate the future and to fill us with a happiness which makes the present
sufferings comparative light. Have I attained that happy state?
B.
Joined to this prospect of the future is a great confidence in God in the
present. Confidence is part of hope. When we have learned by patience to trust
Him amid sorrow, tribulation, disappointment, then we have a solid foundation
for trusting Him all the rest of our lives, not only with a sort of blind assurance
that all He does is best, but with a consciousness of the happy results to come
from all that patience bids us bear; results, too, which we begin to experience
even here. I must then aim at this confidence and pray that I may gain it by
patience.
C.
Saint Paul tells us that if we hope for that which we see not, we have to wait
for it, for the perfect work of patience is to wait contentedly for the time
when God will give us the good things He has promised us. This was the
Apostle’s frame of mind when he said: “I have fought a good fight. I have kept
the faith, and at the last there is laid up for me a crown of justice.” (2
Timothy 4:7.) So, too, for me, if I persevere to the end, there is laid up a
like crown. The thought of it shall animate me to fresh patience.
29. The Third Fruit of Patience: Joy.
A.
“As it were sorrowing yet always rejoicing.” (2 Corinth 6:10.) This is Saint Paul’s
description of the ministers of Christ, labouring for the salvation of souls.
What is true of them is true of all faithful servants of God. On the surface,
apparent misery; but down in the depths of the soul, intense joy. Of this joy, Saint
Paul says: “I am filled with comfort and exceedingly abound with joy in all our
tribulation.” (2 Corinth 7:4.) What is it that works this charm? Patience.
Patient endurance, humble submission to the will of God, resignation to His
providence.
B.
How is it that out of sorrow joy can come? The reason is that if we are living
for God and in dependence on Him, and seeking to promote His glory, then,
although in the natural order we may be crushed down with pain and suffering,
we shall be full of joy by reason of the supernatural gladness that God bestows
on us. “Your joy,” says our Lord to His Apostles, “no man shall take from you.”
(Saint John 16:22.) Have I any experience of this joy? If so, I will thank God
for it; if not, I must wait patiently, and see whether there may not be some
hindrance to it on my part.
C.
Whence comes this joy? From Heaven. This is why it surpasses all earthly joy and
makes earthly sufferings sweet. It is the first faint reflection of the light
of Heaven amid the clouds and darkness of earth; the first foretaste of the joy
into which the just will be welcomed by their Lord at the gate of Heaven. If
one drop of it on earth sweetens all bitterness, and makes all sufferings
light, what must be the intensity of joy which will inebriate all those who
have here endured tribulation and suffering for Christ’s sake?
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